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My day has sucked! It seemed to be going great, I was having a great time with my husband and children, then we went out to eat. I went to come with them after getting our food, and there they were, all three lined up like little ducks in a row. And here was my dilemma...I wanted to sit by all of them, but had three seats to chose from. I knew someone would be upset with me, so I chose the middle seat. Then said "Dang, you guys made that hard on me. I didnt know where to sit!" My husband shot me this GO TO HELL look, and I swore at that moment he absolutely hated me. Followed by "All you ever do is complain!"
Wow. That was all I could think.....WOW! That was a f'in compliment, jerkhead. I wanted to sit by everyone, and you turned it into something entirely the opposite.
Here I was, feeling like my husband thought the worst of me, shooting me these nasty looks. My appetite gone, my mood shot, and on the verge of tears. Now everything I did was something horrible. I had no appetite, my kids called me on it, and I tried to say "Its ok, it will come back" he sighs and rolls his eyes at me.
Tonight I finally got sick of him trying to get in my pants and blew up at him. I said I was sick of following all of his rules. I am sick watching what I say, or what I do. I am sick of the way he looks at me, and feeling like the only time he wants me is if he wants sex. I want to be loved just for me.
He never heard me. He told me I had a character flaw, and I was filled with negativity. He said "If you want to be upset because of the way I look at you, then that is your deal" I tried to explain that it was a two way freaking street, and marriage is about partenership. He wants me to own how I make him feel, but he never owns how he makes me feel.
Well, if wants me to choose how I feel, then I will make sure i feel happy away from his sorry ass!
Men suck.
And thank you for giving me an outlet to "complain". All people deserve the right to complain. Hell, I swear its the only to maintain a sense of sanity.
*hugs to the B*SH team*
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